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random thoughts - cold feb -- saturday afternoon...

human beings cant fly.

but I dream of flying all the time...

last night I won 87 million dollars....

Do dogs dream?

after everything is whisked away upon death - transformation -- here - in this reality what will be left of you?

youll have memories...

that is all...

you dont take  the house

or the car

or the watch....

or your wife or your lover...with you...

you go alone - with a pack of memories...

will they be will warm or cold...?

full of love or simply a flashback of unspoken pain...

everyone has pain...

the pain of seperating from the divine upon birth...

the pain of seperating from the divine

the source energy...

wanting to go back...to the source energy...

holding memories...

of past lives...

times -- other worlds...

spirits...

remembering eternity....

giving your life to something..something you live for...

something youd die for...

no one is wrong here...

look at their life as their experience....

who really cares what someone else believes....?

are we a nation - a wolrd and planet that is destined to live under the oppressive domination of psychopaths....?

totalitarian worlds...

domination...control...seperation from the divine - source energy...

man kills for fun and sport - 

you do not see this in nature....

man kills for jealousy and rage....

you do not see this in nature...

domination of the pack....yes...in Baboons....

the alpha male in the Baboon pack is allowed to mount any other Baboon he pleases...and often times he will mount other males as well as females...

pause....

drugs...medication...

meditation...

medication

meditation....

medicine....

the cure -- 

authenticity...

being Lost...

you have the experience...

if your energy stops flowing - dis-ease begins 

why ?

because it stagnants...

therefore -- 

is dis-ease 

disease  - simply stagnant energy?

Is--- health - ?

balance 

health is balance...

??

yes ?

affirmation: I allow my energy - my chi to flow wherever it needs to go --

like a river....

Repeat after me: 

My sense of protection is restored... 

My divine intelligence is restored... 

I'am re-connected to the source-energy... 

I'am powerful and wise... 

and knowing and strong... 

I refuse to absorb anyones pain or fear or abuse... 

I will detatch from all things that poison me or poison the Earth... 

I do not want poison in my mind or body... 

I'am not fear or dis-ease... 

my core is light and divinty... 

I'am power and intelligence... 

I'am free...I will not be repressed or depressed by anyone or anything... 

Organic in means organic thoughts and feelings and an organic life... 

my sexuality is right for me... 

my sexual energy is powerful... 

my energy can not be blocked...or repressed... 

I'am life 

I'am fire and water and light and dark 

I'am the Earth and the sky... 

I'am everything... 

I'am love and power... 

Amen... 

SeanB - SeanBateman9 Rapture Cafe reading Review...EV

SeanBateman9 - Rapture cafe Reading -- review....11/07

below is a review of last weds Seanbateman9 reading @ The Rapture Cafe in the East villiage...

november 29th reviewed on blog
http://www.farmboyz.blogspot.com/


by Perge Modo

as follows:
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Any Wednesday Night

"On Wednesday evening, I arrived awfully late to hear those reading at Rapture Café. Late but confident that they’d save Edmund White for last, and that was indeed the case, so my trip south on the W and east on the L was justified.

I also heard the entire delivery of the handsome, intense, and probably slightly-deranged-in-that-good-way SeanBateman9 whose face, body, voice and carriage are etched with the highly charged circuitry of the sexual energy of his past, present and future.

I liked his story, and found him to be more of a gifted performer than others who have held that microphone, but my own relentless inclination to edit led me to telling him (after compliments) that he could have skipped the entire introduction and framery that he had been inclined to supply. Actually, I was not alone in that opinion, having heard someone seated in the dark rows to the left of me shout out “Read!” while SB9 was still working his way through that intro. Goodness, I thought, are we at the Apollo?

One note about this man before I recommend your seeking out his blog and his television program. When he announced that he is into metaphysics, sex and death, I felt apprehension, having done a bit of research into all three and having learned that those three sisters are best approached not in their direct naming but through the following of those mazes that will lead you to them accidentally. But, I am giving him his props: the skewer-de-force story that followed, told almost in gruesome real time, leads the listener to a satisfying destination between its lines. Also, I feel kinship with men who do this kind of "KirkTV" , having had my own local access TV show for a few years in the Wretched Little City.

Oh, and a note to all you Craigslister Misters, if SeanBateman9 shows up at your door, and if you’ve subtracted even one pound from your real weight or one year from your real age, run for cover.

One final thing about this guy urges me to seek him out. He says he has gone through several “deaths”, and that as a consequence of each, has invented a persona that seemed to surface like a mask from the lake of each demise. I, who have gone through four deaths, each made almost painless by the self-administered novocaine of adequate pre-planning, can appreciate this and am always curious about the deaths and resurrections of others."

Rapture cafe - east villiage - nyc weds Nov 28th 2007

love Sean